I have not weighed in for awhile mainly, because I have not felt like I have been doing enough to make this happen. One other reason is the Tuesday weigh in deal was not working for my daughter and I so we were going to go with Sundays,which we will get into action this next Sunday. So far it seems we keep forgetting till late into the day and no one wants to weigh in at night, right? Not me, you always weigh more at night than the earlier part of the day!
Today, we both remembered we need to get back on this and set up a routine.On our way down stairs to weigh in I was feeling like I was going to let her and myself down when I weighed in so I was dreading this. Dixie works hard at trying to keep me focused. I call her sometimes on my way home from work and ask her if she wants anything, a meal, a treat, anything to give me an excuse to stop for myself. She has been great at saying "mom, I am good, plus you want to save some money and lose weight right, so just come home and we can snack on something here". I am thankful to God each time she says such things, because I pray to Him to help me stay focused on treating my body with respect and the health that he has given me and focus better on my finances.
I have also not been exercising like I want to, mainly due to my new job. I am not enjoying it at all and looking again. I am drained and frustrated when I get home. Anxiety is triggering again, because of this job. I have no contact with people or feel like a part of a team or anything. The environment is lonely and frustrating. One plus to this job is I stand the whole time and bend and squat and lift boxes, so I get some activity out of it!
This week I am helping at our church Mega Sports Camp/ VBS and Mondays word for the day was "Change". It made me start thinking of what do I need to change in my life to live life better than I have been? I know there is much to change so I am dwelling on this thought and really trying to focus on what changes need to be made.
Tuesday the word for the day was "Endurance". I need endurance to complete this because it will be a long road. I was telling my daughter that I feel bad for people who do not have hope for the future.When things are tough or discouraging many people just settle for where they are and that is the way it will always be. This saddens me because Hope seems to be the thing that can keep me going. I know if I keep trying even after I fail I will get there. I know God will help me get there. I am anxious to learn about the rest of the weeks words of the day as they are encouraging me on my journey.
God put my little Dixie here to help me and remind me of what I need to do. Last week we went on a hike! I am so happy she is willing to do things with me! We trekked through snow and mud and hills and I did it! It was not over whelming, nor did I wonder if I could do it. What I have learned in the past year is that I can do it, I just need to get out there and do it! We hiked about 2 1/2 miles and it was good!
In the mean time, I weighed in today. I have finally dropped below the 290 mark! I know this was suppose to be hit mid June, but I keep pressing on even when I do not hit my original goals. I can still achieve and set new goals! I am enduring and hoping for the future. Finishing my race so to speak even if I do it at a turtle speed. I have been encouraged in so many ways the last 2 weeks and it hit me with a nice surprise today, weight loss! Your getting there Lisa one step at a time!
