On May 1st, 2011 my daughter Daisy got engaged! On May 1st, 2011 I made a new commitment! Being a momma of the bride, I will get this done! My family will be growing and I will be shrinking! It is a new motivation and one with a deadline!
I have a little over a year to transform this body and I am so excited and feel like this is finally the motivation that will kick my butt into gear! I have not worn a dress in probably 12 years. I can remember the last time and it was for a family members wedding, actually 3 of them that year. It felt like I was wearing a big tarp or my grandma's moo moo. Not feeling very attractive in a dress I have stuck with slacks ever since, even at formal events and funerals. At the wedding, I will wear a dress, I will look better for pictures as I have been avoiding the camera for over 25 years. I will have the energy and enjoy the wedding festivities with all the excitement and work that goes into it all and still look fresh and vibrant with my new found self!
I sat down and wrote out some specific goals and my daughter Dixie will be my head accountability partner in this. I am keeping a log of what I eat and what I do for exercise and she will be reading that. I will be weighing in with her on Tuesdays as that is "Biggest Loser " Day! I weighed in on Tuesday, May 3rd for the first time since my last post and weighed 302. My goal is 10 pounds a month. I figured it is very achievable, realistic and healthy and after a year I will be 120 pounds lighter and I have a few more months than that, so yeah even more! The wedding date has not officially been set yet, because it will be after she graduates college next May, but probably July or August of 2012!
I think the reason I am so excited that this weight loss will finally come off is I work well with deadlines and this deadline is an exciting one! A Wedding!
I don't know why I haven't thought of having a deadline before! Maybe there wasn't anything too exciting in the future that would be my reward. I could think of things I wanted to do differently and have the health, strength and energy to do them, but they are just things with no dates. Looking at my past I see that I have stayed focused for about 3-4 months before it all tapers off and I fall back to my old ways. I have let small set backs become big hold backs at getting it done. I am very sensitive and emotional in many ways and small things seem to knock me off my game. I don't have time to let those things get to me now with a deadline, I have to work through them!
Some of the healthy lifestyle changes I have made have stuck with me and I have made small progressions of change even when I lose focus. Everything I have done that included a deadline, I see I am more focused and work till I get the job done, even if I miss out on sleep and pull all nighter's or my body hurts so much from all the work I have done, I can still manage to keep moving and press on till the project is done. My past also shows me that when I don't have deadlines I take a very laid back approach at getting them done and they go to the back of the line for when I have extra time or think about it or feel like it. This can no longer be delayed.
I thought to myself that if this does not motivate me nothing will and I am a lost soul trying to be something I can never achieve. But then I realized, I never want to give up on this.I feel with all my heart and soul that this is my time to accomplish it! And not to give myself an out, but if this does not happen in the next year for this wedding, I will be signing up for Biggest Loser every season till I get on the show to get it done!
So Tuesdays will be weigh in days and if I don't have anything ready to blog about I will at least post my weight, deal? Ok, it is a deal! And in Biggest Loser style in little over a year I will have my makeover and look and feel like a princess! Oops, I guess I will be the queen being the momma at the wedding of a princess! We will dance and celebrate her day in style!
Let the new journey begin!
